July, 2025

i didnt even realize it was nearing the end of the month. damn (its not even the end of the month, ive just made a habit of doing it like a week or two b4 it ends (3/4s?))

this months been a blur honestly. my sleep schedule has been so ass and tryign to fix it is not working. it feels like im rewiring my brain and losing sense of everything. im so tired and i just wanna sleep it all away but im so tired of sleeping during the dya

i js wanna see the mornings. its really beautiful.

ive been taking a break from my website just mostly due to wavering interest, but theres just been something Wrong. its under my nose for sure, but ive been so tired and exhausted pushing myself that i cant see anything.

the youngest one of the litter darth had died i believe a couple days ago. poor baby. we called him goober for a bit. now the only one left is the oldest one, a girl.

my exhaustion has like sent me into a depression honestly. im js really tired this month

there hasnt been any school work at all. the year i finally expect it theres NONE. RAHHHHHHHHH. i watched the superman movie. in short the message was good but by itself it wasnt the greatest thing. my neck has been so stiff . help me

later this month (this week actually!) my mom has this work convention at south padre island and me and my dad r able to come. its paid by the city so IM GOING TO MARGARITAVILLE BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK UES!!!!!!!!!! hopefully ill b awake. im js tired today. i wanna give up trying to fix it this way. ive been watching skullvolver recently, ive watched his stuff before like his darkrp but i watched his recent undertale first time playing vod and Oh My god. i relived sm of that beautiful game through his eyes and cried alot. when i watched penny play it, penny and both me (that sounds parasocial. i dont mean it that way lmao) have already seen and had this game touched our hearts. but skull? this was his first time and seeing his reactions, the way it worked and touched his heart personally too, made me so happy. before i watched the final vod i saw his tweet abt throwing his cigarettes in the dumpster and i was like hehehe lol but the Context to that? it made me cry so much. im so happy he was able to expierience that in a dark time and it let him become better in that moment. tldr, am now big skullvovler fan. everyone go watch him

gif this month: sorry dont got one. :(

June, 2025

yay summer! also my last. lets not talk about that though

ive been doing a whole bunch of nothing. deltarune came out this month FUCK YES!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YES and its been having me in a chokehold. oh my god. ive been struggling to clean my room (i set a goal to clean my room this summer) and ive procrastinated like alll month..... bro. but im finally tackling my laundry and i WILL fold my clothes this time yuh huh i will NOT leave them on my bed and watch them fall on my floor ..... yes

the dog my parents have been taking care of for over a year, luna, finally was taken to the vet and the only option was to euthanize her. me and my mom buried her in the backyard, with her bed too. we buried the flowers she always sat on and ruined /affectionate. my mom was not the best caretaker (not abusive, just neglectful). she couldnt walk in the first place. im glad shes just not in pain anymore.

i hate knowing when things are buried. when somethings down there, covered in dirt. is in uncomfortable? do you feel it? it must suck being wrapped in that plastic bag. i hope it isnt too hot.

andys in a casket. it probably still gets stuffy in there though. the other kitten didnt have anything. hopefully in fall, its not too hot and not too cold under there.

i dont think i want to be buried. maybe cremated. however, i want a tree sprouted from my body. its cold underground. the water pipes that run undeground are always colder compared to the ones in the roof.

away from that, the tenna freaks on ao3 have succesfully converted me. i NEED that tv. I LOVE TV

i have scoured all of the tenna/readers. i have scoured all of the spamtennas. the mettatennas... theyre all peak

its gotten so bad that ive started selfshipping. I NEVER SELFSHIP. OH MY GOD

heres my fav gif i found this month (he is so hot here. oh lord):

May, 2025

i survived junior year my lord. i passed all my classes (yay!) but i didnt get a b in my speech. fuuuuk. i got a c and look man "cs get degrees"

naruto as quick as it came left as soon i remembered deltarune existed. i cannot wait until 3+4 come out aw ya aw ya

im gonna try and pick myself up this summer. i need to start driving and maybe get a job #unemploymenteraover. i also need to do chores n shit ive been fucked up at doing dishes

unfortunately since i live DEEP in texas it is unbearably and horridly hot dude. 100+ degrees fahrenheit with a sun sensitivity is not for the weak

heres my fav gif i found this month:

April, 2025

this months been as well as the other ones has gone. tiring asfuck i hate school. im just glad im enjoying html. i hung out with family with easter, and hopefully this month i can go somewhere with my friends. im on academic probation and if i dont get a B in this speech class im actually fucked

ive been getting back into naruto. last time was like. 5th grade. actually crazy. despite how bad it is it IS amazing and everyones should watch it. sasunaru 5ever and sakura is the best character fight with the WALL

its whatevr. ill just do my best. heres my fav gif i found this month: